I’m Looking For Motivation

We finally made it out of January which seemed to last about three years. February comes with is own challenges like having less than 30 days, finding a Valentine, or whipping out black history facts. Today we’re going to talk more about finding motivation.

In an earlier post, I covered getting past procrastination. However, the true goal is getting face to face with motivation and learning whether or not it’s real.

Motivation can be authentic and natural, but this can be inspired by intentional redirection. Some people are naturally driven to complete certain tasks or goals, while others feel forced to complies with those requests. The difference here is whether something has become second nature or habitual for the individual.

So I am of the mindset that motivation is innate: you either have it or you don’t. However, if there’s something you really want, you can do things to create motivation. For example, by nature, I am quite the perfectionist and artistic. Those two qualities can be the best combination for a piece or lead to it’s demise before it even manifests. Due to my perfectionism, I’m often paralyzed to create things because I want them to look a certain way. In art, this is not always the case, but it could be with years of practice. So when it comes to painting, I have to find my own motivation to get the job done.

Earlier, I mentioned that motivation can be created. The most effective way for me has been to make a schedule and stick to it. When you make a schedule, you prioritize certain tasks and actions according to your own value scale. Therefore, if I need motivation to paint, I start with a small commitment to myself of painting for one hour at least 2-3 times a week. As time progresses, painting becomes more important for me and I get into a habit of working a certain amount of hours on it.

This could be done with almost anything. Need motivation to finish an essay? As soon as you get the assignment and answer all your questions about the prompt, open up that calendar. See how many days you have until it’s due. Then do yourself a favor and change the due date to a day earlier. Look at the number of stages or pages required for this essay and build a schedule backwards. So if I have a 10 page essay on why left feet are associated with bad dancing:

  1. Identify the due date and made your personal due date.
  2. I have 2 weeks to write 10 pages. This means I have to write 5 pages a week or be more specific. Ex. I will write this many words a day. I will write 2 pages on Tuesday and Thursday, then 1 page on Sunday.
  3. Determine what stage you have to be in the process. Ask yourself, “How much do you know about this topic? What do I need to research? How many sources do I need?”
  4. Then you can pick a date to either just conduct research and gather sources. Or set a date for your research to be completed, so you can just write and edit.
  5. Be sure to edit on your due date and submit as earlier as possible so it’s off of your mind.

So again your motivation can be created from having easy tasks on a variety of days. Eventually you’ll get into a habit of scheduling out enough time to complete those assignments. That’s how I find motivation: doing small this here and there with an end goal in mind.



After this summer, I know two things for sure: if you truly want something, it is yours to have, and also remain flexible, because you’ll never know where this world will take you. With a positive mindset and a good amount of stubbornness, I have no doubt that you can turn life’s unfortunate events into dreams. I had heard an artist say before that the most important thing to them was to “craft their life” and not just let it play. Being humans, we are creatures of habit and without a little bit of creativity or curiosity, we find ourselves stuck. Always question, always challenge, and always grow…for not all those who wander are lost.

The Dead

This month, I’ve been traveling along the coasts in Ireland. In learning about the culture and history of this country, I’ve realized that the world and stories of the dead never leave new generations. Every generation reforms the traditions of the past and it is only through understanding that history that we are able to take full advantage of the present. #irishturtle


My last series consisted of vessels representing issues women face. This one in particular tackles the skewed view that women are easily replaceable. “A cup is a cup is a cup.” Many think that although the style and size are different, that cups serve the same single purpose. I personally find this revolting, due to the fact that it both defeminizes and dehumanizes women.

I’m Not An Artist Because I Enjoy Art

I’m not a painter because I like to paint. I’m not an artist because I love art pieces. I am an artist of various mediums because I like to learn, teach, observe, and communicate. When completing art, I learn about everything from how to mix paint from scratch to the construction of the human anatomy and the history of religious imagery to the importance of the direction of light. I am able to teach others about a new view point of the world while introducing color theory and composition. I feel at peace because of observation not because of the art. It’s widely mistaken that creating art is a peaceful task; however, it is the act of taking the time to closely analyze subject matter or allowing the hand to guide your work that is peace. And yet, at the core to all of this is communication: whether it be a mood or a movement, I hope to give a new experience or thought to someone. I don’t enjoy the ache and pain of being an artist, but I do enjoy the little moments in between when it’s just me, a blank surface, and time. It’s kind of like life: no one goes through it for the obstacles, just the little moments of bless, lessons, conversations, and observations.



Big Picture

self portrait-1-1

This is a self-portrait painted in oil. My initial intentions were to show eczema in a beauty light; however, this portrait’s focus shifted to that full body appreciation. Towards the end, I spent more time looking at the big picture, rather than the small stuff that gets in the way. My hope for those reading this is that they remember to not get caught up in the small stuff and focus more on the big stuff.

“Art enables us to find ourselves and lose ourselves at the same time.”
― Thomas Merton, No Man Is an Island

Build Memories


This is a charcoal piece from my first year in undergrad. We were asked to complete a self portrait using our own personal items. This piece speaks to the fact that many of us are comprised of multiple layers, making us unique, dynamic and quite confusing sometimes. I find that there is beauty in mystery and complexity, but I also understand that it’s okay to let down some walls. Remaining guarded is no way to live life fully. I wish to die with memories, not hopes, dreams, and aspirations.


collage + photocollage + paint

This was a piece I created for a design course, entitled:Dualität. We gathered images surrounding a particular theme, created a gray scaled collage, sketched out the image on another sheet, and painted with acrylic. This was a very long process, but it helped in the development of thoughts.

I created a piece that juxtaposes two lifestyles of these women: the life of bubbles, flowers, fruit, and kittens versus that of rocks, snakes, pills, and alcohol. Although tedious, I enjoyed printing, cutting, sizing, and pasting every object or element in this piece. In fact, it is the process of thinking, crafting, and revising that I love the most-even more than the final piece.

Fall Convocation Piece-Review

Convocation Fall Piece

This piece resulted from a speech about a first hand experience during 9/11. I feel a great sense of peace and balance through this piece, which reflects some themes from the presenter. Although very organic, geometry keeps its form in order. Often times, I look at old work and just feel that something is missing. I may revisit this print sometime in the future an repost and update.

To help with this idea of how you know something is missing, I’ll explain my feeling more in depth. Upon review of this composition, I feel that it is significantly heavy in the top left portion, I wonder if I should have done more with the open shapes on the mid left or the right half, and it just seems as if there is a spark missing. Maybe one element should be added. I am not sure.