First, I apologize for my absence. This Winter and Spring has been occupied by events, projects, trips, and conferences. Although I have not been writing as much, I have been documenting those memories on my other social media platforms.
My last post summarized the most important parts of my senior Communication research. Since then, I have noticed that I really enjoy learning about how the world informs us about race and how that encourages us to or hinders us from taking action. As I work to improve my physical being and my outlook on the world, I began focusing within and actively practicing more self-love.
My senior Art Capstone documents this process through paint. I will release the artist statement and final images for the current exhibition on display within the next couple of weeks. However, I will insert a sneak peak below! More images are loaded onto my Instagram
I have spent weeks trying to find the words and the perfect quote to express this thought. What I have now realized is that it does not have to be ingenious or flawlessly crafted. What I want to say is that I am transitioning.
For years, I have created work that I felt others wanted to see. I have painted, drawn, and written narratives that we not of my true nature, voice, nor intentions. Therefore, following my explorations aboard through the landscapes of Ireland and then nationally within the suburbs of Orlando, Florida, I have reached a period which I consider the eye of the storm.
I am currently doing research, along with person soul searching, in order to properly articulate my narrative. For this reason, I have not and will not be posting as often as I have in the past; however, this Winter you can expect sneak peeks of my first exhibition. I am excited about this for many reasons, but I am most excited to be able to sincerely share myself with you.
“Art enables us to find ourselves and lose ourselves at the same time.”
― Thomas Merton
“A bird doesn’t sing because it has an answer, it sings because it has a song.
Today, I was completing a reading (The Secret History by D. Tartt) given to me by one of my closet professors. The most recent section reminded me about our relationship to ourselves: strongly referencing this idea of mindfulness. You will find that you spend a lot of time contemplating or in conversation with yourself. Some people might find this annoying, but I think it’s worth while to build a strong relationship with the only person who can truly know and understand how you feel and what you mean. Spend some time with yourself today!
“Scare the World: Be Exactly Who You Say You Are and Tell the Truth.” -Found on 2wentysixletters.tumblr.com
One of the most frightening things a person can do is find themselves and their voice and be unapologetic about it. When you discover who you are and what it means to you to be that person, you will find a sense of relief and comfort. What’s more, you will discover the power you have in being comfortable in your own skin and will refuse to accommodate for the entertainment of others. I think this concept is the most fearless of quotes that I can present you with, because believe it or not, knowing yourself and your truth is the biggest threat that you could pose to the world. And honestly, I think we could use a little bit more of that.
Lately I’ve been working with the theme of decay. My first encounter with the word made me invision gross subject matter, but after much reflection I’ve internalized what it means to me. This painting was a result of viewing the beauty in decay. It is subtle, quiet, and intertwined. It is apart of a living process…
Today I completed a figure drawing and for the first time in a while I said to myself, “Wow. I really like this.” I think it’s interesting how many people who don’t create assume that art comes naturally to certain people or that we aren’t so self critical. Artists are self critical by nature because that’s how we improve. This isn’t perfect but I like it.